*First Post!!*

YAY! I'm finally doing this whole blogging thing after so many people have suggested it to me & months & months of me wanting to start one up! I always feel so much better when I write my feelings out & since I seem to be quite the open book lately, I guess I might as well share it all with everyone too. :) So hereeee we go...

Okay, well to start things off, this past month has been absolutely CRAZY & HECTIC! But I honestly wouldn't change a thing about it. On August 21st, I found out that I didn't make it on The Biggest Loser season 9, which was absolutely heartbreaking. For about a week after that, I was in shock and was "completely okay" with everything & really thought I could just go on living my life as I was before. But the fact of the matter was that for months during the casting process, I hadn't been the same, old, fun-loving Courtney I have always been--completely pushing all of my problems to the bottom of my list of priorities. I didn't care about my health issues by any means. So just "going back to the way things used to be" was a lot harder than I had ever thought. I did a lot of soul-searching during that time period of casting & I really thought I was going to be able to change my life through the show. When this idea fell through, though, I had to realllyyy pick myself up from the very bottom. I've never been an unhappy or depressed person in my entire life, so when I was constantly sad & upset, I KNEW something was really wrong. But the truth is, I had to figure out that I CHOOSE MY OWN HAPPINESS. This took me a while to realize, a little less than a month to be exact, but I'm FINALLY on the right track! On September 21st, I started my "30 Day JumpStart" through the Biggest Loser. (Thanks Romano, for the AMAZING book & birthday present!!!!) I can proudly tell you that in 20 days, I have lost 18 pounds!!! That makes me super happy to say & think about. I was kind of down on myself yesterday about it because I have kind of been at a stand still this week w/ weight loss, but then I took a step back and looked at the big picture. I am going to lose AT LEAST 20 pounds in ONE MONTH. Isn't that crazy?? I have to be proud of that! And although I still have sooooooooo much left to lose, it's been a great start so far. Yesterday I tried on a vest that didn't zip last fall/winter, and IT FITS NOW!! I was in shock. Although I know I've lost close to 20 lbs, looking in the mirror I just didn't really see it. But knowing the vest fits makes me soo incredibly happy!

Enough about all of that! In other news....I am FINALLYYYYY 21!!! I've been waiting for this basically my entire life! And although it's awesomeeee & I love it, it's just crazy to think about! I have yet to really go out & bar hop for a weekend or even a night. I've been to some pretty sweet bars & stuff so far, but I have just been so busy & in such a routine that I haven't really made the time for it. Speaking of that, work & school are both going really well! I hate getting up early to go to work, but it's pretty much worth it. I work from 8:30 till 2ish, then go to classes (18 credits) from 3 until 7ish Monday through Thursdays. Then I of course come home, cook a healthy dinner, workout (a few times a week) & then do my homework the rest of the night & do it all over again the next day! It's non-stop stuff all of the time, but I kind of like it that way.

I could go on & on & on about everything going on with me...but it would just bore you! I think I'm going to use this blog for getting my feelings out, but also spreading love & positivity as much as possible. As most of you know, I LOVE LOVE LOVE inspirational or uplifting quotes (or any quotes for that matter) so if you have any good ones, PLEASE post them! I'll be posting some daily! :-) Hope you all have a wonderful weekend & I will post again when I have time! As for now, I'm off to get ready for an amazing, much needed night with my friends!!

xoxoxo,
Courtnaaa <3

"Our lives improve only when we take chances -- & the first and most difficult risk we can take is to be honest with ourselves."